"How puzzling all these changes are! I'm never sure what I'm going to be, from one minute to another."

Just a quick note to point out that I have realized something grand.
I do believe that the solution to my "problem" is to become a cyborg. Heck Yeah. 

Hold your circuits now. Not a cyborg in the Cybermen, Ghost in the Shell, Cylon kind of way...

which is the way that i suppose i may have implied...

but rather in the sense that my shortcomings are going to be upgraded and outsourced by exterior technological apartas.  

I have been following Amber Case for sometime and she goes on and on about how we are becoming cyborgs.
I wonder if, in the hyper-modern sense, I am not seeking for a solution to my frustrations from within the system that is their source. I may well have biological predisposition to AD/HD behaviour. Visual right mindedness and all of that. I do recognize the effect of context in this development.